I like to tell my stories, but I do not like to tell them literally. I want to evoke curiosities.
These stories are reflections on the biggest emotional turning points in my life. As a PTSD sufferer many of my paintings contain elements of my past and symbolisms from my own memories. First, I use the raw side of the canvas, then gradually I build the layers of medium and paints on top of one another to achieve the final outcome. With each painting I sew my name in with a hand-dyed red string, which is to seal and mend this chapter of my life.
The act of this art-making process represents the philosophy of my life. Everything starts from nothing, so I must spend time and work on building what is needed to achieve my goals and experiences. I think this philosophy relates to everyone in some way, and so I believe painting on raw canvas is very symbolic of that.
The way I perceive certain flowers or animals kindle certain emotions in me. I then use those feelings to create my own interpretation of my life’s experiences. The experiences I paint from are mostly very unhappy and somewhat sad, but I never consider them to be this way. For me, all experiences are beautiful and by painting them I am at peace with them. Hence, the immediate feeling from my paintings shouldn’t make the viewers sad, but more, at peace.